i'm sitting on a rainbow

Today is interesting because I have the day off. I forgot what it was like to be free.

I am quite the busy bumblee bee, however - I'm preparing to buy a new vehicle (hopefully today) and i've been zooming all over town checking off things on my "to-do" list. I picked up my very last check from the baby photography place..it was ridiculously small and unjustly so but I don't even want to deal with that nonsense so I let it be. Like that Beatles song. After than I picked up another check from NUVO ([url]http://www.nuvo.net[/url]) for the photos I took in the nightlife guide. So I'm a little richer now.

I also stopped by the hip little cafe I used to barista at. I reminisced with a delicious cranberry scone, spinach quiche and of course a 16 oz. iced coffee. It was delish. [url]http://www.luluselectriccafe.com/[/url]

I also stopped by my grandparent's house to pick up the title of my car (I locked it in a safe there). I found out that my grandpa's brother, my great Uncle Al, had passed away this morning. I could tell my grandpa was hurting so badly...I really didn't know what to do. I did not know my great uncle that well, but it hurts to see someone you care about hurting so badly. I just gave him a big hug and my grandpa rested his head on my shoulder and I just lost it..just..sobbing all over the place. I've never seen my grandpa cry my whole life and it was so much to take in. I think that my crying was a mixture of 1)feeling my grandpa's pain and 2)being terrified of death. I have not experienced a lot of death in my life and it's something that really gets to me...the idea of life and death. Perhaps I dwell too much on philosophical thinking, namely existentialism..I don't know. But I just hugged my grandpa for a long long time and we both cried...I'm in a weird haze right now. everything is foggy.

Anyway, sorry to be such a debbie downer. I am going to go play in my garden for a little bit now.